Attitude

I've been in a strange mood for the past several days. Just really blah and unmotivated, and today I feel very sad. I know this must be hormones, because I'm actually excited to be going home soon. I just don't feel the excitement. It's cloudy and drizzly, but that's not the problem, because I'm happy for it to rain here...when it rains, it's only 82 degrees instead of 85. Of course, the humidity is 80%. I'm always dripping.

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I'm finding it very hard to make myself go out and work. I don't know if I'll manage to fulfill my hours this week or not. I did go out and do some landscape work this morning -- pulling weeds and trimming bushes -- in the drizzle. I got really annoyed with the dirt all over me and the prickly stick-tight seeds and my sweat-drenched hair hanging in my eyes. And after 20 minutes of burning ant bites, I just wanted to scream. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and quit.

This next week will be hard to drag myself through. This is one reason I keep doing my epic adventures. I can always look back to a time on the trail or to that 21st day in a row of bicycling in the rain and remember that I have it in me to keep on keeping on, no matter what. If I said I'd do something, I know I can see it through. This just isn't as much fun as hiking or cycling.

And, no, I don't know the people in this picture. I have software that suggests and provides photos for my blog...I have no idea why it thought this one was appropriate. But it struck me as funny and made me smile, so I added it.